The relationship under the money

When I was 18, I used to imagine and picture how lovely and wonderful it would be to get involved in a relationship.
There will be a person caring you, consoling you, protecting you, supporting you at anytime you need or at time no one understand and support you.

When I was 20, I still believe in love where it was still beautiful to me.
It is so great to be able to find someone know you so well without you telling him what you want but could stand by your side at the right time.
However, I no longer believe what couple so-called 'forever' in a relationship.
People change all the time.

2 years later where is the place I am standing now, relationship totally a nasty and complicated thing to me.
It is true love is sweet and enjoying when we are in the period of infatuation yet, things change and getting worst when time passing by.

Because we are not children now, there are lots of issue that will be brought into a relationship. And after all, it is just problem about individual family background.


Because she is not the same religious with his family, so she has to go for the same one if they are going to marry.
Because her family isn't richer than his, so his family think that the girl is only peeping their son money.
WHAT THE HELL I would say, rich people sometime is just too bumptious and self-consideration.

Well, this is just a very small issue of my stories.
There are lots and lots problem that we as a listener couldn't help but feel sorry to them.

So, we as a girl, we need to be more independent.
There are not much real guys we can really rely on.
Instead of waiting them to feed us, to work like a mad maid at home without pay but just losing our glow, it's better to be miss independent in both your life and economy.

I'm not saying that I have lost confidence on relationship, just that we have to choose carefully.
Choose the right instead of being a girl who doesn't know how to reject.

If you have met the right one, go for it with brave.
If you haven't, wait patiently, the right will always bring to you at a right time.

Girls, we have to take good care of ourselve. Be the master of your life instead of others becoming the master of your life.


*wink* =) *wink*

Anticipation . Dissapointment

Long time never been here,
and most of time I come here, is to relief my sadness,
so maybe this doesn't a place to come.


Nothing is eternal.
A word could break a relationship, one's unceoncern could spoil a relationship.
But sometime we are not purposely to do that, but people misunderstood.
I thought if we really know deep enough, u will understand I doesn't mean that.
I thought if u are my friend, I can speak out how I feel and u'll always understand my situation.
Yet, I finally know this is just my own thought, people don't think the same as u.
Or maybe Im just too selfish to put all my thought on u.


We always couldn't convey the right massege to others, especially the one u care,
and this is when hurt start growing.
Im hurt, a deep hurt indeed.


Time is distand, time makes change.
I know, I know this theory well.
Yet, I realised Im a person who believe the fairy tales as well.
Because I believe this will never happen on us, never ever.


I scare people treat me well, because Im afraid they will leave me one day.
So I hardly open my heart, pretend to be cool so no one will be able to hurt me.
But why people leave once I start accepting,
Again and again, I start losing confidence.


We make the promise, but who really honour it.
Foever, is such far, a never ever reaching dream.
Never anticipate, so no dissapointment.


So Im satisfied and cherish, for those who really love me.
Im thankful and touched indeed,
I love u guys as well, more than how much I could measure.

The Reality

That's something happen in my hostel.

That was a guy sitting in front of the bathroom and taking pictures from the bottom of the door when there was a girl bathing inside !!

DIRTY !!! such a shame to know that there is a kind of person living inside our house !

I thought me and my friends will get some explantions from our owner,
but he just gave us a face that he didn't believe what we said n promised us to put something at the seam of the door there and nothing else !!

Angry and dissapointed ...
I started to feel how cruel and dirty this world is ...

The guy who did this has girlfriend,
I wonder how her girlfriend will react when she knows her boyfriend is such a guy ...
The landlord is just too afraid to let this matter spreaded,
this will affect the reputation of his hostel and hence, his income ...
At the end, everyone is just thinking of themselve
and who is going to take care our security, our safety ...

I try not to think pessimistic, try to be strong in front of other, try not to tell my mum b'cos I dont want she to worry,
but I'm just trying ...


People told you he will inform other tenants to remind them, but they just said and nothing have been done;
People told you he loves you, but he get to the other girl at the end;
People told you you are precious to him, but he never remember what he has promised;
People told you he is faitful to you, but you found out that he has flirted with so many girls ...

At the end, you are confused.
Whether they are just too good in lying
or you are just too naive to believe all these,
or the worst, you are actually nothing to them ...

Feel powerless sometimes, a lot thing u can't help, can't do, can't change ...
What you can only do is ... accept the REALITY.

Accept and get used to it, sad world.