The relationship under the money

When I was 18, I used to imagine and picture how lovely and wonderful it would be to get involved in a relationship.
There will be a person caring you, consoling you, protecting you, supporting you at anytime you need or at time no one understand and support you.

When I was 20, I still believe in love where it was still beautiful to me.
It is so great to be able to find someone know you so well without you telling him what you want but could stand by your side at the right time.
However, I no longer believe what couple so-called 'forever' in a relationship.
People change all the time.

2 years later where is the place I am standing now, relationship totally a nasty and complicated thing to me.
It is true love is sweet and enjoying when we are in the period of infatuation yet, things change and getting worst when time passing by.

Because we are not children now, there are lots of issue that will be brought into a relationship. And after all, it is just problem about individual family background.


Because she is not the same religious with his family, so she has to go for the same one if they are going to marry.
Because her family isn't richer than his, so his family think that the girl is only peeping their son money.
WHAT THE HELL I would say, rich people sometime is just too bumptious and self-consideration.

Well, this is just a very small issue of my stories.
There are lots and lots problem that we as a listener couldn't help but feel sorry to them.

So, we as a girl, we need to be more independent.
There are not much real guys we can really rely on.
Instead of waiting them to feed us, to work like a mad maid at home without pay but just losing our glow, it's better to be miss independent in both your life and economy.

I'm not saying that I have lost confidence on relationship, just that we have to choose carefully.
Choose the right instead of being a girl who doesn't know how to reject.

If you have met the right one, go for it with brave.
If you haven't, wait patiently, the right will always bring to you at a right time.

Girls, we have to take good care of ourselve. Be the master of your life instead of others becoming the master of your life.


*wink* =) *wink*

Anticipation . Dissapointment

Long time never been here,
and most of time I come here, is to relief my sadness,
so maybe this doesn't a place to come.


Nothing is eternal.
A word could break a relationship, one's unceoncern could spoil a relationship.
But sometime we are not purposely to do that, but people misunderstood.
I thought if we really know deep enough, u will understand I doesn't mean that.
I thought if u are my friend, I can speak out how I feel and u'll always understand my situation.
Yet, I finally know this is just my own thought, people don't think the same as u.
Or maybe Im just too selfish to put all my thought on u.


We always couldn't convey the right massege to others, especially the one u care,
and this is when hurt start growing.
Im hurt, a deep hurt indeed.


Time is distand, time makes change.
I know, I know this theory well.
Yet, I realised Im a person who believe the fairy tales as well.
Because I believe this will never happen on us, never ever.


I scare people treat me well, because Im afraid they will leave me one day.
So I hardly open my heart, pretend to be cool so no one will be able to hurt me.
But why people leave once I start accepting,
Again and again, I start losing confidence.


We make the promise, but who really honour it.
Foever, is such far, a never ever reaching dream.
Never anticipate, so no dissapointment.


So Im satisfied and cherish, for those who really love me.
Im thankful and touched indeed,
I love u guys as well, more than how much I could measure.

The Reality

That's something happen in my hostel.

That was a guy sitting in front of the bathroom and taking pictures from the bottom of the door when there was a girl bathing inside !!

DIRTY !!! such a shame to know that there is a kind of person living inside our house !

I thought me and my friends will get some explantions from our owner,
but he just gave us a face that he didn't believe what we said n promised us to put something at the seam of the door there and nothing else !!

Angry and dissapointed ...
I started to feel how cruel and dirty this world is ...

The guy who did this has girlfriend,
I wonder how her girlfriend will react when she knows her boyfriend is such a guy ...
The landlord is just too afraid to let this matter spreaded,
this will affect the reputation of his hostel and hence, his income ...
At the end, everyone is just thinking of themselve
and who is going to take care our security, our safety ...

I try not to think pessimistic, try to be strong in front of other, try not to tell my mum b'cos I dont want she to worry,
but I'm just trying ...


People told you he will inform other tenants to remind them, but they just said and nothing have been done;
People told you he loves you, but he get to the other girl at the end;
People told you you are precious to him, but he never remember what he has promised;
People told you he is faitful to you, but you found out that he has flirted with so many girls ...

At the end, you are confused.
Whether they are just too good in lying
or you are just too naive to believe all these,
or the worst, you are actually nothing to them ...

Feel powerless sometimes, a lot thing u can't help, can't do, can't change ...
What you can only do is ... accept the REALITY.

Accept and get used to it, sad world.

Coming to the END

'Time flies. On a pace that you can't even catch a blink'.



Well, my holiday had ended. Frigging fast.
Four months holiday, is too much indeed.
Living like a degenerate, is pretty enjoying anyway.
Play, eat, sleep, hang on the internet, crazy, gather with friends ...

2 days 1 night trip to Malacca is the first thing I did for my holiday.

This is my first time to Malacca.
I have tried the hai nan chicken rice, candol, satay steambaot, layer cake, laksa ... which all those are famous in Malacca.

Big thanks to Bebe's friend.
Because without him as our tourist guide,
I don't think we have the chance to try all those things in just one and a half day in fact.

What a wonderful and amazing trip to northern Malaysia.
Just realised there are such many remarkable places in other parts of our country.

Full of joy and happiness, thanks you guys.
Is so glad to know you all, don't forget the promise we have made =)

Of course, gather with my lovely sista is a must-do in my list of playing.

Such a long time din't meet up, we do change a lot.
Our looks, our thoughts, our dreams ...
No matter how much we had changed, hope our sista-ship will never fade =)

Trip to Singapore had out of my plan for my holiday.
Nevertheless, I do like this unexpected schedule which let me hang out with friends that hard to meet.

Four months holiday let me fully utilise my passport which I only used twice before.
This can be considered the only benifit of my long holiday even though I had spent a lot of money during this holiday. ><''

I got to attend most Liu Shi's gatherings during this holiday.
No regrets if I am not able to attend others when I start school. =)

Thanks Nv ren and Peach, I love to be with you guys.
Thanks for bringing me to have so much luscious foods and places that I couldn't ever find out for photos if went alone.

My last day of holiday never dull because of you guys =)

Nv ren, wait for me for the Malacca trip.

We gonna honour this promise soon =D

Is so great to meet up with my lovely secondary classmate.
Even though we aren't keep in touch frequently, there is never unfamiliar or uncomfortable between us.
'Those who we are comfortable with can sit without speaking'.

And yes, I think we are on that level =)

So what I have been done for myself? Hmmm ... I wonder too.

Did some part time job to earn some money. Is totally broke during this holiday. =(
5 days involved in the electronic fair as a sales girl was extremely a good experience.
What is my feeling after working? Money is so hard to earn, indeed.
So I got to be more preservative in spending money next time.

Just finished reading 'The Note Book'. Not bad in fact.
Thought quite bored at first but is addicted to it after reading.
I love the writer's way of writing, giving us as a reader enough space of imagination.
Is a recommended book, anyway =)

Did hang out with family.
Just realised how long we have not been really sit together for a meal.
I felt so warm when we went out together for lunch while sharing each of our stories =)

Feel so satisfied with my second year holiday. I had enjoyed it to the MAX !
Thanks every each of you, b'cos without you guys along,
I don't think I would be able to enjoy every single moment of my holiday =)

Impefection

'Nothing is perfect' - this is the theory that stays eternally.



Sort of losing my way these days.
Thoughts wander without conscious direction.
Especially after finishing the final episode of 'ge4 ren2 qu3 xiang4'.


Everything is just too perfect in the show, particularly the main character.
He is my dream one, I don't deny.
Yet, it's just a drama.
A drama that gives us hopes about the world, or escapes from the reality...


Recalling our conversation.
'Dream one doesn't equal to the suitable one'.
Absolutely correct.


Always try to idealize all the things I met.
Maybe is just a way to run away from the cruelty that might enconuter.
Is immature, I know.


So, WAKE UP, girl.
Make the impefection as a strength, a strongest attribute =)

The SPECIAL ones

'The more you care, the more you scare.

Scare the ones who always become your spiritual stay dissapear one day.'


Yeah, indeed.
Because those are people you care.


Is glad to meet those I so-called special one. They make my life.
Letting me know I'm not alone, I'm important, I'm precious;
Accompanying, supporting me when I'm down;
Giving me advice when I'm wrong;
Never dump me when I need help ...


Thanks for being my special ones.
Loves you guys always =)

Old friend-ship

Nv ren-ship

Liu Shi-ship

Ji mui-ship

Sista-ship

Ji mui men-ship

** FOREVER **